Lazy day @ home

Tomorrow's LOG and groceries, exciting day...
I ordered some more Christmas stuff yesterday, September comes, can Christmas be far behind? The crocheting is going OK, had to tear out about a foot tho'! seems I had picked it up when I was only half across a row and went back and forth and back, etc. for quite a while--I thought I was getting really good at it because it was going so FAST!
Been gathering info for B. for the convention--food, seminars, badge names, etc. will go online and register tomorrow. I enjoy going to convention--matter of fact, I think only A. & I enjoy it--everyone else seems to think it's a chore, wonder if the Bishop thinks so?

Sittin' for Bella

I love Bella--she's my "step-dog" and I'm sitting for her for a few days. She has great parents who make sure that she's not lonely if they're away--she also has a BIG voice, likes early morning hours, has aches and pains, and an appetite for "cookies" as do I. We are happily watching cable TV together, while I crochet and think about all the things I should be doing but don't feel like doing!
Bought The Message Remix on CDs yesterday--great 50% off sale and I'm looking forward to listening to it (them?). We also ate lunch at Miller's Ale House @ GCTC and really enjoyed that--good food, decent service but crowded, of course (business lunch crowd).
Someone in the area won the $52 million Lotto Saturday, wasn't us :-( gosh-dern-it-all. My "retirement plan" is definitely not working out!! However, the rest of the plan is OK--I've got the "idle" part down pat!

Rain, not enough

We had a little rain today. Not enough really. Either we're going to dry up and blow away or the "big" one (storm) is yet to come. After all these years in FL I've gotten used to rain every PM you could set your clock by, but things have changed (can you say global warming???). Now it's just hot-hot-hot and humid-humid-etc.
Spoke with W. today about going a different direction with the D. deal, perhaps with LOG? We'll see. Of course I'm still interested, I don't ever want to stop learning.
Started a crochet project today, during the rain. I reallyreally dislike chain stitches so that's usually the hardest part of anything I make. That and the fact that the recipient of the hand-made gift must like me in order to appreciate the gift--as in the case of my cooking--it never looks all that good, but the heart's there!

Magik in everyday life

Well, it's the everyday, ordinary things I see, hear, smell and/or touch that I take most for granted. Getting up without an alarm clock makes a happy start. Having someone bring you coffee is great as well. When my car runs, has gas, and I can afford to have one, that's everyday magik. And when there is nothing that I have to do, and I can eat chips, watch Angel reruns and veg out--at least for that day--there's renewable magik afoot!
My goal in life, from early childhood, ("What do you want to be when you grow up, dear?") has always been the same: Rich & Idle!
Before it was an option for girls, I used to say jet pilot, then graduated to astronaut, but secretly, Rich & Idle has always been the real thing. Not that I ever achieved this goal--I've put in my 1000+ years of mind-numbing drudgery same as most everyone else. I guess my dream has scaled back to Getting Along & Idle, and that's OK. I do understand and appreciate the benefits living in the USA has to offer, and within the bounds of self survival, volunteer for and monetarily support, causes that help the disenfranchised, homeless, helpless and hungry. That's my serious side, my self-depreciating humorous side is much closer to lazy and selfish and I have to be eternally vigilant for unseemly outbreaks.

Things are brighter

Well, I seem to be getting over my blue funk and things are looking up. S. called today, she said that she had been so angry about the D. rejection that she just didn't know what to say to me. I'm glad she waited, we were able to discuss it lucidly (without me tearing up in anger). We all agree with B. that it's a poopity, poopity, poop.
Did some online Christmas shopping (!) am getting fairly close to finishing for everybody but A. I just love to shop early, then we can mail in early December and get the boxes out of our hair (and jog relatives memories that we're still here :-) !!!).
Found the Brotherhood Winery online today--didn't know they were! We went to a wine tasting there some 40 years ago(!!!) and I really enjoy some of their specialty wines. Heavens, how time do dash by....
Reading another Philip Yancey book, Rumors, very interesting and also watching Dead Zone and Angel DVDs from the library--it's fun to catch up. Also watched episode 1 online on Showtime of David Duchovny's new series. Pretty easy to tell right off it's cable, whew. Really glad he's easy to look at, 'cos I saw a lot of him.

Another day...

OK, enough with the self pity, enough, I say!
Went to Estero today but no one was too interested in visits. H. wanted to play cards and P. was celebrating her b'day. I ate about a pound of pecans (!) and came home.
Tried to contact B. R-P to see how the move went but she wasn't at work and the answering machine at home didn't pick up. Still haven't really gotten a message from S. & B. kinda expected one, nor from D. but then didn't expect one.

The hardest thing...

This is the hardest thing I've had to write since I started this blog...and while that has not really been that long a time, this is a hard thing to do. For most of my life I've had various dreams, I've tried various "careers," I've interviewed for various jobs, none of which I've quite pulled off.
I didn't pull this dream off either. The Commission on Ministry has declined to recommend me to the Bishop to become a deacon.
I started out calling this blog God's call, changed it to God's call? and now I think I'll change it again. God has chosen, through his people, not to call me to ordained service. I'm disappointed, yes, however, that's what discernment is--finding out--and I did.
Where I go from here will take a little time to figure out...

It's over...so far...

Today was my COM interview, the one I've been so anxious about since around April/May. I am sooo glad that it is over and whatever the outcome--a new beginning or a bittersweet ending--it is welcome. We've been in a two year holding pattern but by Sunday I'll know if they are recommending me to begin the training or not. Either way will be OK...really...I'd surely like to continue, however, I'm not sure if that is my pride or God speaking.
In any case I owe a few hordes of folks the news, either way. The people on my committee and my friends have been asking and asking when I'll know and I told them all I'd send out an email whatever the outcome.
Right now I'm resting from the interview and the long drive with a glass of wine. Too much adrenaline in ones system turns out to be rather tiring in the end.
More Sunday....

Festival Sunday

Today is the first Sunday of Festival month @ church. We are combining Sat. nite, Sun 9a & Sun. 10:45a all together into 1 @ 9:45a. J. was the first sermon and boy was he good! It was a pleasure to hear him preach, he was funny, self effacing and really got to the point. Now that's more like it!
S. & J. came to the service today--was sooo glad to see them, we had hoped they'd come but weren't sure they'd try. I think God was happy they were there as well 'cos J. was good, the music was lively, the place was crowded and J. gave away free popcorn & sno-cones! What more could you ask for?
BTW it was an important sermon too, about storing up riches--OK so your barn's full, now what?

Great visit

Had a very interesting visit @ the LMHS Care Center. The Chaplain is very nice (looks and acts sooo much like Fr. M.!) and the Center itself seems to be taken care of very well. I'd feel very comfortable at the Center, it's very much like Estero, but is that what I really want? Perhaps I should go more towards the Health Center ministry, at least that would be new and would present an interesting challenge and learning experience. Well, I'll contact Rev. B. to see where she needs me the most--that should help me decide.
I'm still missing my friends...can't imagine where they are. Guess I'm just in a different galaxy that they are, I'm not included in anything. Am I just not making enough of an effort?
B. & G. will be @ the beach by 8/13, I am so looking forward to seeing their new place. Can't imagine it being only 25% of the area of the home they're leaving--or, rather, yes I can. Gulf front property is outasite!
Having lunch next T. with P. as CH is out of the ofc. Looking forward to that visit. She's a great gal and deserves much better than she's getting. If only I could do something, but I just have no "power" and no way in help her.
OK when will I win the LOTTO? I'm really ready for it. Have so many plans, all I need is beaucoup de money. Father, I'm humble, needy, ready and willing...now would be sooooo great!